Forgotton

I am here but you do see me I talk to you but you don’t hear me I miss you do you miss me? Surround yourself with others but what of me? Reassurances made but not kept. In the darkness of night you feel me but do you see me? My once bright light dimmed by neglect My face is but a memory my voice still unheard. I stand before you arm spreads open Walk over my grave not yet grown cold. Will you remember me? The good times, The bad times, or just the hard times? Once I felt so alive by the love you gave me No longer excited no longer loved no longer wanted? Do you hear me? Do you see me? Can you feel the caress of my hand? Do you love me… My eternal question to you…

Daughter of Lilith

I spill my blood forth for my mother Lilith! She who dances in the Black Flame within my heart my arms raised and horns of respect. She the divine feminine who has gave me the life’s blood within me.
I stand before you Mother Lilith in adoration of your wisdom, beauty and strength! Always your daughter always your creation always your priestess!
Your essence excites me like fire in my veins! Divine mother I call upon you by your many names!
LABARTU! LAMASHTU! LILDTHA! LILI! LILIT! LILITU! LILLU! LILU! LILLAKE!
ABEKO! ABITO! AMIZO! BATNA! ELIO! ITA! IZORPO! KALI! KEA! LILITH! ODAM
PARTASAH! PATROTA! PODO! SATRINA! TALTO!
Thy celestial beauty bathed in the moonlight, my infernal mother crowned with the moon and the stars! Eyes of the serpent gazes upon me speaking to the darkest parts of my soul!
The Great wings of Lilith cradle me close to her death embrace. Look to the heavens for thy messengers of thy night skies feathers of ivory fall down upon my face!
Great beasts circle me and lead me to the crossroads of my life!
Freedom of my will my father Satanas has given me!
Thy divine flesh so intoxicating presence so inviting within me externally! Internally! Eternally!
I dance between the veils of light and dark between life and death between the here and now!
Led through darkness I feel the Black Flame of wisdom show me the light I carry inside! Never to be lost never to be misled persevere I shall for I am a daughter of Lilith!

What once was

The ugliness you have befouled my soul with sickens me. I loathe that person that I have become. I now live within the shadows with my anger and sadness. Dreaming of the eternal slumber I will never find. You have taken the beauty from my soul you emptied my heart. Cruel is thy heart of my soulless lover. Your once inner beauty gone, Time seemed to have stopped when I gave you my heart. You left me in the darkness to become the twisted soul before you. I was nothing more than a toy for your amusement. You look on as I become this monster you see before you once my soul was filled with love and beauty and shined through my eyes but no longer as that light has been extinguished my eyes empty and cold. The life I had gone my love gone my heart gone. Hold me no longer touch me no longer I am nothing without the flame that once burned for you. I am but a shell of the person I once was I’ve no passion no love no heart! I curse the day I found you!

The Black Stag

A great beast stands before me a Stag of Black staring at my very soul. I feel great strength within me I hear the pounding of his heart as he carries me through the forest of darkness. Soon a clearing is upon me with a pool of moonlight where I find my mother’s reflection I bathe in her light.But my journey is not over. I embrace the Stag once again laying my head upon him feeling safe in his presence. Never does he leave my side nor I his. Taking me on ward and forward driven to go on the path we call life never surrendering. I raise my horns above me becoming empowered letting all that has held me back fall away I transcend into the High Priestess you see now before you. Never looking back just onward! Soon I come upon legions of my brothers and sisters dancing in the moonlight around a great pyre of fire ring after ring with horns raised high! I look to the Stag again only to hear within my mind’s eye. You are my child and will never be alone.

Trusting thy missing heart will to return to me

Dying from the inside out, a stillness set in stone trapped within my own mind. This endless void where my heart should be, replaced by the heaviness of pain and disappointment. The feeling of disappointment hurts nearly as bad as betrayal. Told to look forward but always looking back. Eyes wide open wishing they were shut. Never dreams all that remains are worries and despair. Dreams are for the young and the rest is left to me is empty and cold. Short lived happiness is all I’ve ever known. It seems I should wish for depression since there is no shortage of that. Perhaps it is too much to hope for fulfillment in ones existence these days. Oh void less despair will I ever be free from your grasp? Will this heaviness in my heart ever leave will my tears be of happiness? Will the truth ever reveal it’s self to me? Trusting thy missing heart will to return to me.

Violation

Violation in the dark,

While I dream of you.

Breathless am I...

Oblivious to the crime at hand

Adrift in my dreams...

Strangers HANDS in the darkness.

My dreams suddenly change to nightmares!!!

Awaken only to see the face of your Predator!

Not the face of my beloved...

Flooded by the emotion of Disdain,

and Horror!!!

USED!!! EXPLOITED!!! VIOLATED!!!

Never again!!! Never again!!!!

Mockery Everlasting...

I drown in the memories,

of the ones who lived long ago...

Take Solace in the pain of,

thee unworthy!!

Fill thy chalice with my blood...

Mockery Everlasting!!!

Veins filled with Venom,

heart felt darkness...

Blood filled tears come forth

from thy eyes..

Mourn thy lost...

Stand vigilant over the pests!!!